FRIDAY....WHAT THE HEH..
* Thursday, July 9, 2009
I'm free ♥ 11:29 PM
When one says TGIF, its happy...its fun...its awesome....its great..
What the heh for me seh.....
Nothing to expect
Nothing to look forward to
Nothing to thank about
Nothing is good
Except...work throughout..waiting surprises...konon
Week ends ppl enjoy...got hook...got dates....got party, drink, drunk..
Me just like going into week end hell!
Got dump ada lah
Sucks!
Initially I used to receive and hear.....'oh I would love to..oh I wish I could.....oh I want to but.....'
Now I receive 'NO'
Oh my...I'm speaking vulgars now in my mind @#$%!!!
My heart breaks for you...my girl
* Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I'm free ♥ 11:59 PM
Thank you Lukman for your thoughts...I couldn't thank you enough for the sensitivity you potrait today.
I knew you suppose to have commitments...yet you came by and suggested dinner.
I don't know where the gesture comes from.
May it be from care..or just being nice...or....I don't really know.
Beats me! I really don't know!
What is it that is about us? Almighty...help me
Thank you my little hero Zul...ma appreciates you.
Tho nothing of our unpleasant life should be bothering you...I'm sorry.
Just when I thought we're out of clutches, my little pompy cries again.
Sorry daughter....I never meant to bring you into this world to share my pain.
I'm sorry that your own father treats you unfair.
You have been so strong and quiet love...but ma have long known that my children were deeply torn apart.
I have done my utmost for my love ones, and I am running out of zest to go on and on and on.
But again, I will never let you down....no matter how.
Just hold on to me okay......
Me No Awesome Today!
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I'm free ♥ 12:51 AM
Yes D...I know I look terrible to u NOW!
Thanks for confirming it.....I know....not only my look today D.....
I feel terrible too.
Tho I work hard...or yeah I'm smart
I'm thumbs up at work....to most people
I'm thumbs up personally....to most people
I'm thumbs up here, there, bla bla bla
If only u know how hard my life has been
If only u know how tough I have always been
If only u know how much strength I have put in
If only u know how much care I have given in
If only u know how much wrong I have accepted in
If only u know how much soul searching I swallow
If only u know how much tears I used to and still flow
If only u know how much misery I feel
I'm maintaining D
I maintain my strength
I maintain my health
I maintain my smiles
I maintain my laughs
I'm nursing D
I nurse my weaks
I nurse my flaws
I nurse my love ones
I'm feeling heavy D
I lift each with each of my fingers
I carry all with both of my shoulders
I head with my only brain
I strive with both my feet
I love all with my heart
Nothing of me is left to heal my own pain
I don't have any choice......do I?
U came into my life
I heard u said......and said again
u don't know when u'll leave me....
But I know D....u certainly will
BROKEDOWN
* Friday, July 3, 2009
I'm free ♥ 11:03 PM
It has been hard to cry in recent times...but broke down.
Waited damn long for the housing loan appeal, never stop praying everyday for it to materialized. Never did I fail to be in contact with them to up-date...but alas...I've been failed.
Never care at my surroundings...
Never care I am a boss...
Never care my surbodinates...
I cried...just cried and cried and cried!
My dream to get an immediate settlement in a home for my ducklings went rumbling down.
My days bunking in others home prolong.
How much more I need to bear such, such, such pain and all these pressures within me.
Tho my boss helping me his best....still nothing is certain of this damn shit hdb thing!
Tho YB morally supports....still.....what ease my situation?
It was a real shit day indeed!
My specs left behind....
My new bracelet snapped...
My watch stop out of batt...
My docs left in office on my way to....
My head..my body aches....
My 100 bucks out to wedding...
My heart and concious pain to lie.....
My encounter with that unscruplus bastard at wedding.....
My luv failed me a home ride...
My leg hurts walked a long way in the night to catch a stupid cab..
My feel liveless waited long long time for cab....
My luv daily non response whenever hes sharing his bed with....
My sleepless nights......
NO! I am not petty.....but I'm bearing pain!