IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME, REALLY!
* Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I'm free ♥ 6:36 AM
Hi myself!
It's been a never ending stressful life time. Needless to say, painful too.
Out of TTSH finally juz few days heading to the Lunar. Thanks Allah.
Full of zest just after that. Got myself karaoke-ing alone, loud and enjoyed. Non stop eating, smiling....then came the drastic old friend of mine.....stomach aching....rushing to the doc....ouch the jab...and ooh the bill.
Three solid days with ouch, ooh, oh, my!, tummy bloats till today.
Nevertheless, never ever forgot to make some one happy. Jan 25th visited niece home and created a surprise birthday celebration for her hubby. He is one fella that I adore and respect despite being so call nephew. Wonder if my own could be as humble, marvellously in control, blah blah blah.
Glad everyone in that home happy. It's just me, who loves those who loves and appreciates me.
Oops! Then a surprise came from my eldest duck. He finally speaks his mind.....maybe he sensed my recent broken days somehow. Emm....never did I expect his sudden concern to help to actually trace that missing 'idiot'. As mum I found myself mum. But deeply happy that my flesh somehow cares for me...especially when he mentioned he actually had been ignorant too long, and time to act FOR ME, hihi. How my duck gonna act, I don't know. It is best to leave it to him I guess, since my duck is now a man, real man and daddy to two cute little angels..oh how I love them
Saaid or pendek, as my duck referred, had been my moral pillar for donkey years. Suddenly made himself dissappeared, invisible or lost to space without a single word or goodbye. Could it be it that I feel so broken???? Whatever.....it doesn't matter now.
I'm living fine, working well and still knows love keeps coming from people around me.
Extract: This time was different felt like I was juz a victim. And it cut me like a knife when he walked out of my life. Now I'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms of a woman with a broken heart, but no matter what you'll never see my cry!
Chao
2009 Attack!
* Friday, January 16, 2009
I'm free ♥ 10:38 PM
It was a rather relaxing Sunday, Jan 11th. Bit of cooking...yummy porridge and everyone loved it. Spent couple of hours glued to 'Starworld' watching past American Idols. It was great laughs, laughs, laughs, suddenly......
Felt a kind a weakly in my body. Pompy duckling rushed to check by BP.....of my! BP is down, down, down. Tried to remain calm and denied emergency. But could not and got Hairi to get me the mimo mimo vehicle. By then the world had been spinning in my brain.
Into the ambulance and straight to the resus at TTSH. Couple of time at such and never did I ever shed water in my eyes. But this time I had to cry. Unscrupulously painful experience. Syringe after syringe, tubes of tubes of blood were sucked out from poor me.
Pompy duckling and my Hairi never failed to visit. Little Dewi and Dad came once. She's so cute knapping in Nyai's bed.
Jan 13th, pompy came with two ducklings. They were so sweet with their craze craze fun loving ways. So touched with their visit and kind gesture of living me a token. Heryani and Salwaa, two new names in my mind. Companion to my pompy.
Never did I forget.....Zul...with his kind regards.
We also learn from each new happenings. Nil visits from my kins and nieces or phone hi, except that of my elderst. Phone regards from my bro. Nice visit from Raf, kind visit from my sweet cousins. Two repeated visits from secret admirer....yucks sucks! Love visits from my ops who never fail to forget his chocolatees....my favourite. Oh ya, one most anoying visit from Mr. X.
Thought I would be home before weekend, but what to do...I am now spending over the weekend at 10B62. Aigh...when will i be over with this endless pain...
My life dream, if I can't touch the sky, I would at least touch the clouds!
New Year Me!
* Saturday, January 10, 2009
I'm free ♥ 6:08 AM
It's been so long since my last blog. It was a year.....2008 ago.
Had moments of laughter when celebrating Hairi's bday on the 27th, eve of his actual bdate. Enjoyed and thrilled with close families warm supports. Though it's been quite awhile that I put in my cooking, my dishers still much appraised and washed out.
Out of broken pockets, managed to pinch and made thru my Hairi's dream list. Got him an Adidas watch to remind him time flew, always fly and precious. An original Crocs to cover his feet and walk on life. Though 21, he's my baby for life.
Moments when he was dashed with cream cakes, powder and party pops by dear cousins was so unforgetable....I'm sure in all their minds forever too.
Never a day that I did feel pink in health or feeling top of the world. It was all about bluessss. Neway, on last day of 2008 me made a resolution..hah!...if I could remember was TO FOREGO MY PAIN AND SORROW. Achieving it till now is still about trying.
Also on last of 2008, me did a crazy thing with my littlest baby....we pampered our hair with trimmings, washing, steaming and me..hihi .. colouring and for the first time ...HIGHLIGHT..YO!
New Years 2009, Eve! Is all about countdown on TV and SMS a bday wish to my X-HUB. History..history
It's then the 2nd, my littlest baby duckling pompy starts school at 2A3. Me back to work....rush rush and off to company's dinner. It was a crazy night. Did my very best to remain aloof taking care crazy drunk bunch of company's ugly ducks. Hah...me always had to play mother to them.
But, it was joyful, and they don't forget my next day bday! Got wishes, got hugs, got kisses....but presents were meant for next day. Well, they never failed me. Got flowers, got perfumes...double double perfume. One came from littlest duck and her beau. Hem....beautiful was it?
Bday began with normal breakfast and nothing special. But got cheeky call from RAF to join bowling with three BBNs. Said yes and sped there with littlest duckling. Enjoyed 2 rounds, then off to night bazaar before to RAF's home. Dinner was simple, chat chat was good and few rounds of karaoke was fun.
From 5th till now is all about work, rush, TTSH check-ups, money gone gone gone. Wonder when I could be as great healthy as before. No doubt I know hospital with initial of "TAKES TIME SWEET HEART" does not promise speedy recovery.....sigh...